As I walk around my house this morning with my hands clutched together thinking about how I’m going to live this life without my son, I’m remembering all the good times we had, and how the holidays were his favorite time of year.
It’s been 4 years since he past, and I still catch myself asking the question – Why? Why did he have to leave this world so soon, and why am I living and he’s not. Our children are not suppose to leave us first…dammit!!
The holidays are the hardest, especially when I think about spending time with family and preparing meals for family and visiting relatives. It’s just hard – though I may not show it on the outside, it’s truly there on the inside – how can it not be?
As I prepare a small gathering for an early Thanksgiving dinner with friends and neighbors this evening, my reflection on Johnny is there in a big way. I love you son and always will.
May you and your family be close this holiday season and always.